One more week. That's what I have to keep telling myself. One more week. I can do anything for one week. I have been fanatically* studying in a feeble attempt to ameliorate my chances of obtaining a high score. The antipathy that I feel for the GRE is unmeasured. I abhore that I have to take this test. I detest the fact that I have to study for this test. I'm just ready for it to be over. I want to know my score. I don't even really care what I make at this point, I just want to be DONE.
Esoteric concepts such as aphorism, pusillanimous, recidivism, syntax, sentence structure, and comprehension are juxtaposed with the measure of sectors, supplementary angles, average speed=total distance/total time, a^2+2ab+b^2=(a+b)^2, and % decrease, intermingled with analysing and argument and presenting my perspective on a topic. Who cares? Who the heck cares? All this preparation and worrying and all I get is one score that will be calculated with my GPA to determine whether or not I am worthy to attend whichever graduate school I decide to apply to.
I have been putting so much emphasis on this test and spending so much time engrossed in preparing for it, but is it really all that important? In five years, or ten, or twenty, or even in 6 months will I even care? Will anyone care? It will be just as important as my ACT score, or my AP English score, or my Praxis score. If I am lucky I will get to brag about it like I do my other ones, but to who? Because WHO CARES? In the grander scheme of things what does it really matter? What is it really worth? What have I really accomplished in taking a 4 hour, $150 graduate record examination? It's just to what? Prove to myself and nameless, faceless others that I am smart, that I have what it takes to succeed in graduate school. I already know that. I already know that I am smart and that I will succeed. I just hate having to prove it via a quantitative examination. Hopefully, this will be the last time I have to reduce myself to a pencil and paper(or in this case a computer-based) evaluation to determine my perspicaciousness. Call me an iconoclast, but I simply don't see the efficacy.
One more week. I only have to study and worry for one more week.
*fanatical- filled with extreme, unquestioned devotion
ameliorate- to make better, improve
antipathy- extreme dislike
esoteric- known or understood by few
juxtapose- to place side by side
perpicacious- intelligent
iconoclast- one who opposes established institutions
efficacy- effectiveness
9.30.2008
Graduate Record Examination= Misery
One more week. That's what I have to keep telling myself. One more week. I can do anything for one week. I have been fanatically* studying in a feeble attempt to ameliorate my chances of obtaining a high score. The antipathy that I feel for the GRE is unmeasured. I abhore that I have to take this test. I detest the fact that I have to study for this test. I'm just ready for it to be over. I want to know my score. I don't even really care what I make at this point, I just want to be DONE.
Esoteric concepts such as aphorism, pusillanimous, recidivism, syntax, sentence structure, and comprehension are juxtaposed with the measure of sectors, supplementary angles, average speed=total distance/total time, a^2+2ab+b^2=(a+b)^2, and % decrease, intermingled with analysing and argument and presenting my perspective on a topic. Who cares? Who the heck cares? All this preparation and worrying and all I get is one score that will be calculated with my GPA to determine whether or not I am worthy to attend whichever graduate school I decide to apply to.
I have been putting so much emphasis on this test and spending so much time engrossed in preparing for it, but is it really all that important? In five years, or ten, or twenty, or even in 6 months will I even care? Will anyone care? It will be just as important as my ACT score, or my AP English score, or my Praxis score. If I am lucky I will get to brag about it like I do my other ones, but to who? Because WHO CARES? In the grander scheme of things what does it really matter? What is it really worth? What have I really accomplished in taking a 4 hour, $150 graduate record examination? It's just to what? Prove to myself and nameless, faceless others that I am smart, that I have what it takes to succeed in graduate school. I already know that. I already know that I am smart and that I will succeed. I just hate having to prove it via a quantitative examination. Hopefully, this will be the last time I have to reduce myself to a pencil and paper(or in this case a computer-based) evaluation to determine my perspicaciousness. Call me an iconoclast, but I simply don't see the efficacy.
One more week. I only have to study and worry for one more week.
*fanatical- filled with extreme, unquestioned devotion
ameliorate- to make better, improve
antipathy- extreme dislike
esoteric- known or understood by few
juxtapose- to place side by side
perpicacious- intelligent
iconoclast- one who opposes established institutions
efficacy- effectiveness
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As I was reading this entry, all I could think was, "Man, Jana knows some big words!" haha You are an amazing woman of God and you are going to do great on the stupid GRE! See you at Chapel. 26.2
Hey Jana, breathe deep and know that everything is going to be alright. I took the GRE last year several times and after the smoke cleared there was nothing to say other than I did what I could. That is all you can do. What you are is a woman of God and a blessing to many. What you're not is a score determined by the GRE. You have immense worth, beyond calculation and should know that success will come on your terms because you're taking the effort to craft them. p.s, if you need GRE moral support just holler.
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