Hello, It's Been a Long Time

Logged on to my blogger account today and suddenly remembered how much I love to write down my thoughts. I realized how much I have missed blogging over the past couple of months. I've probably done myself a great injustice by not writing at such a pivotal time in my life, but frankly, I don't want to remember much of it. After my doctor's appointment today though, I feel that the worst is over. I feel renewed and refreshed in a way that I haven't felt in a long time. I finally, somehow, feel a bit more peaceful with myself and the way our lives will be over the next several months. Perhaps I've just accepted the fact that it will be a long time before my arm is healed. Perhaps I've taken some advice on contentment that a friend posted on her blog long ago and that I've taped to my mirror. Perhaps I've been emotionally strengthened by the sheer volume of love and support from Michael. It's probably all these things combined with reading story after story in the Gospels about Jesus healing the lame, the blind, the demon-possessed, the sick, and the disillusioned. I'm clutching for dear life(and sanity) onto the fact that God is still the God who heals. I feel like I've changed, that the core of me has been altered a little. Not a lot, but definitely some, and probably for the better. I guess it's impossible to stay the same when your entire life has been altered. Some things that I used to hold in such high esteem seem like nothing to me now, while other that didn't seem so important before are now things I would give my life to keep. And you see, this is why I've subconsciously decided not to blog recently, because everything I write comes out meloncholy and depressed. Ah well. I tried. Onto a different topic- I feel that I've finally gotten into a routine with school. Talk about a fantasy buster! My first year of teaching is NOTHING like I'd always dreamed! Ha! It's practically comical now to look back at my daydreams of how I thought things would be. Let's just say that I have alot of areas to improve upon in my classroom. Another small update is that I'm going on my first trip to Disneyworld in about two weeks! I can't wait to experience the world of my childhood in real life!